“You know how you do something from time to time, and the little voice inside says, 'There. That's it. That's why you're here … and you get a warm glow in your heart because you know it's true? Do more of it. "~ Jacob Nordby
In the morning the busy streets echo what this or that said, lying in my bed in the middle of sunlit days and staring at a bamboo plant on my dresser, seasonal jobs, all dressed for waste – work fairs that are in my notebook Written when my mind asked me to fight back – the denial letters, the missing replies, the feeling of just not being good enough – that was what made up a lot of my twenty of, but that is not everything yet.
I had moments in these seasonal jobs that lit my unique mind and showed me exactly what I loved and what I was interested in.
In everything I did there was evidence of a young woman who shouted, “This is a piece of the puzzle of who you are here. This is important. Watch out! "
The rejection letters made me free through concerts, memorable trips, and spending time with those closest to me, and they gave me more inspiration to write.
The time alone, in which I did not feel that I fit in with one of my colleagues and that my life was not following the traditional path that I experienced, caused me to delve into my feelings and think about what I really was guess.
I wrote everything down. It turns out that all of the tears and isolated fears have led me to write stories and poems that are about love, and which are essentially aimed at better understanding and caring for one another.
By spending so much time alone with my feelings and knowing deep down that there must be others who feel that way, I developed an even more empathetic nature that made me approach others more than ever before.
But it took me a while to focus less on the goal and to see the value of the journey.
The moment I graduated, I felt this compulsion and desire, which in my opinion was due to my insecurities imprinted in the past, to define myself immediately. I had to find out who I was going to be right away, including everything.
Nobody tells you when you are on your way to your life that nobody's story works like that.
I thought life would just go on like checking off items on a to-do list, especially through seeing my coworkers play social media highlights. I didn't make the connection that they were actually her highlights.
I've only seen part of the character in my co-workers, and honestly who would be tuned for this show? Who wants a perfect life that is played day in and day out without anyone being challenged as to how to face the occasion and bring out an even more beautiful form of their unique self?
I had seen so many soap operas and TV dramas at the time, and yet I didn't understand that this was clearly not the whole picture, as I was just showing my highlight role. I didn't go around telling everyone about the pain and loneliness I was feeling. I haven't posted over the dozen of rejections I've received.
If we were to post all of these things we might be more spiritually peaceful, but at the same time I think that would also cause us to stagnate if we constantly share all our problems and injustices.
What we want is not always best for us. If we were able to be that open, I don't think we would be stimulated to action by sitting in these feelings and figuring out how to personally get out of a situation to create our own unique story
I've basically played the victim many times when I saw what I thought was making my coworkers so effortlessly check off milestones on their personal to-do lists. So what did i do?
In an outraged imagination that I would be missing, I went on Facebook and off more times than I could ever count and thought when I got back things would be different and I would be vindicated when I got back to mine Join community. I didn't get that and I didn't really need it either.
I think this loneliness and question about a person's purpose in life can come at any time. This just happened to me in my twenties and I'm glad I'm starting to understand why I felt everything I did.
I think we are all unique. Neither of us is replaceable, and we all have the ability to serve many purposes in our lives at different stages as our priorities, interests and values change.
I am a very different person from the confused young woman in my twenty because I no longer seek my purpose like this is this one big thing that I need to find out. Instead, I follow what I love and fixate on all the good I have in my life.
I am constantly concentrating on everything for which I am grateful. I keep a record of my achievements. I keep reading my favorite books. I have to admit that I watch my favorite TV shows which are still teenage drama. I look at art and listen to music that ignites my mind.
When I feel stuck, exercise is key, whether walking or doing chores.
I know that I will follow my goal as long as my heart feels that it is true to myself.
I still get insecure. I don't think this will ever go away, and maybe it's one of the things you don't want that is actually good for you. Without my insecurities, I wouldn't have to reiterate what I am passionate about, and without re-affirming it, there is a chance that I could lose myself.
When I was looking for my purpose in my so-called "crossing period" in my twenties, I found that it is not a thing that needs to be achieved, but a path that needs to be achieved. My goal is a continuous journey to love those who are closest to me and to follow deeply what my heart tells me.
I believe in finding my purpose. I was also able to identify the kind of people I want on my team, the kind of people I want in my life. These people are rare and rare, but as true as possible.
I know that the overall purpose of every life is to discover your people and keep them around. They will be your guideposts and your encouragement to fulfill the passionate greatness that your life is meant to embody.
It is this family of mine that moves me forward and maintains the belief that I live a life of intent by simply loving them and being loved by them, regardless of what else I do with the time was given to me.
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